So, I just had the longest, most sleepless night, most teary night of my life. My heart is aching, my will is breaking and the stress is piling. I'm really getting so tired of things. I've done a lot of thinking and I've made a choice, I know will change my life forever. For everybody out there who's been looking out for me and giving me advice. Thanks for everything, but it's time you guys stopped.
I've made my choice and I'm gonna stick with it. Yes, I am hurting and there's a good chance we'll all right about the truth. BUT I don't care anymore. I've made up my mind. I wouldn't keep this up if it wasn't serious. I really wanna apologise to everyone who's watched out for me for being so stubborn. I know you guys think it's a mistake, and yes, I will admit. It does look like history repeating itself. But I have to keep trying. If things go wrong, I've never asked for any of your help before, and I never will. I'll deal with it myself.
I really want you guys to know, that I do value the advice you guys have given me. But it's really not helping. So for once, I need you guys to just back off. Don't do anything, don't say anything. I've always been there for all of you and I've never asked for anything from any of you. So for once, I'm asking you guys to stop all of this and just believe in me. I know I'm making the right decision.
I'm so sorry to everybody out there who's been there for me. I know I'm better than this, I know that I've always been the guy to never take risk and to always stick with all of my friends even through the toughest times. But for once, I have to put everything aside and just see this through. No matter much my it hurts or how my heart breaks.
I want you guys to know, that yes, you were all right, this is the biggest mistake I've ever made and I did end up all messed up and broken like you guys told me. But I this is one mistake I have to make, I won't give up even if it really ends up killing me.
To all of you guys out there, I'm not discarding everything you guys tell me, but for once, I just have to believe that it'll work because I know it will. Thank you all so much for everything and I'm really sorry for being so stubborn.
