A new chapter

So it's been a ridonkulously long time since my last mental breakdown post, ridonkulouus of course meaning a ridiculous donkey~ noobs... and since I've been so bored rotting away here in MY showroom, I thought I'd post some random garbage here for NOBODY to see.

So first things first, I'm finally done with my studies YAY~! *dances like a little girl which is totally awesome *sounds matured and serious* I've FINALLY reached 21, I had an awesome kinda like a chalet thing which was.... eh.... awesome. Speaking of which, I have just officially formed the scooby gang, which are by far the most awesome people I've had the displeasure of meeting. So if you're not in.... AWWWWW~ Riz turned 21 recently too... he had a chalet, a proper chalet, cos he had stingray (that's right mom STINGRAY) had a great stay over, which of course led to complete and utter lack of sleep, which is how chalets are blah blah blah~

So I haven't been to church for the past week or so, I can't really remember cause I'm just awesome that way. I miss those kids, all the laughs and jokes and... other religious things. It's been so long since I've felt so complete, I have great friends, my family's doing well, I don't feel nearly as stressed out as I used to (except for a few people calling me at the middle of the night, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE -.-)

GET OUT peace homies, hope to see you guys soon =D

Random???

Sup homies~!? I said I'd try to put up a few post here, so *rant mode activate* these hols have been RIDONKCULOUSLY boring. I must say, I'm starting to listen to overly dramatic music recently. Having said that. There's been some construction work being done somewhere in my block and FOR CRYING OUT! SOME PEOPLE WANNA SLEEP DAMMIT!! I mean who wakes up before afternoon during the hols anyway!? Sheesh... those jerks. *rant mode off*

So, I've been playing quite a bit of starcraft 2 recently, I've completed the campaign 3 times already... which is so pro right? I also got promoted to platinum league which is also really pro right? *ego mode activate* I have like the super pro record od 50 wins and 43 loss *inserts sleazy face here adn switchies off ego mode*. Oh!!!! I've also been playing quite a bit of Heroes 5, which is like, TOTALLY awesome. You guys should totally play it imo. It's really awesome. In fact that top pic is like the Arch Angel from Heroes 5. He looks totally cool with his blue sword thing

So for those who are not aware, I've started going back to church, which has been TOTALLY awesome, I'm starting to wonder why I even left in the first place. I mean, seriously, those are the nicest people I've ever met, they're all 'peace be with you' and like hugging each other. It's a real tear jerker right? Oh, and fyi, I'm listening to the song sweet victory by David Glen Eisley while composing this... thing... POST!!! that's it... this post and it's like freaking awesome, I've also been listening to BEAUteen!! by Scandal, it's like a totally awesome song for all the Japanese music fans, I've even got it on repeat and all that cool jazz... it'll be the vid of the post or something. OMG, I just had the worst time of my life getting that vid here. SO PLEASE JUST WATCH IT



So a couple of nights ago, I caught my sis up at like 2 in the morning doing her homework, and she was drawing this dog, that totally reminded me of Cosmo, which, for those who don't know is my dog, just look at the pic above this paragraph. So I decided to help her, cause her drawing... kinda sucks, so check out my epic picture and yes, he's wearing Adidas. Don't ask me why, it's my sister's idea.



So, I found this pic awhile ago and I thought it was hilarious... and it totally reminds me of my friend Faith, if you look at one of the older post, there's a pic of her. She TOTALLY looks like Rukia right? Which is totally freaky, cause I had a dream a few nights ago stabbing me with a sword, so yeah... and if you're wondering why I'm not using the cancelling thing like I usually do, it's just because I'm lazy =/ seriously....

Well, in keeping to my word of being lazy, I'll be signing off for now, cause I'm lazy right... Cya later homies~! and btw, I'll be sending out a VERY special invite really soon to all my close homies, so look out for that *sleazy look* peace out~!

Tears in Heaven

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous ir boastful ot proud or rude. It does not demand it's own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice injutice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful and it endures through every circumstance. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

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For those who has never heard the song Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton, stop reading and go listen to that song first.

It's been a long time since I posted and my life have changed so much since the last time I dared to post anything here and I apologize of the millions of song references I'll be making today and let me warn you now in advance, it's gonna be a long serious, emotitional post, so for those who really wanna learn something, please keep reading till the end.

Those who know the song Tears in Heaven, you'll know it's a song about letting go, so now it's my turn, for the sake of being a better person and for those who haven't heard the song I totally caught you here didn't I!?, there's a reason I told you to listen to it, although most of you are old enough to know the song, and if you don't you're just really sad.

I know the truth and the truth is that in life, no matter how hard you try, no matter how many sacrifrices you make, no one in this world will know you better than yourself. You listen to yourself and not what other people say. This is your life, and you've made it this far, be who you wanna be, be who you are. So be honest with yourself.

Don't hate them, don't forsake them. No matter how hard it is... sometimes you need to open your eyes to see people for who they are. Maybe we're all different, but we're all children of God, no matter which God you believe in, and before you judge them, remember, everyone's perfect in their own way, God makes no mistakes. Follow your hearts and always be strong.

As for me, I've been a good fighter and I'll survive, like I always joke with you guys, I couldn't die even if someone killed me. My life is gonna change though, hopefully, for the better, for those who are afraid that I'll lose myself, don't worry. I may be changing somethings, but the brother who's always telling you to take care of yourself and sleep early eventhough he's a complete jerk and doesn't do it himself, i's always there to tease you and make life a crazy ride for you and tell you 'I told you so' isn't going anywhere. But I guess this time, it's your turn to tell me that.

To my angel, thank you for everything, for keeping me from losing faith, not just in God, but in myself. I hope you'll look back on dates above and think fondly of me. No matter what you say or do, I'm glad I met you and that I had those memories with you, both the good and the bad. Forgive me for everything I've done, and I hope, whenever you feel down, whenever you're stressed or need someone to talk to, I'm here for you. I don't believe in throwing people away, so I hope you don't forget to remember me...

Like I said to be honest with yourself, I'm gonna lead by example and show you what the real Jeremy is all about and what better way is there than to go all crazy over BoA? so my your entertainement here's BoA's Hurricane Venus. With that said, I'm signing off for now... To all my friends, family and everyone who reads this, let's grow together. To the future, FIGHTING~!

Love Jeremy

I'll Find you Somewhere

So, I just had the longest, most sleepless night, most teary night of my life. My heart is aching, my will is breaking and the stress is piling. I'm really getting so tired of things. I've done a lot of thinking and I've made a choice, I know will change my life forever. For everybody out there who's been looking out for me and giving me advice. Thanks for everything, but it's time you guys stopped.

I've made my choice and I'm gonna stick with it. Yes, I am hurting and there's a good chance we'll all right about the truth. BUT I don't care anymore. I've made up my mind. I wouldn't keep this up if it wasn't serious. I really wanna apologise to everyone who's watched out for me for being so stubborn. I know you guys think it's a mistake, and yes, I will admit. It does look like history repeating itself. But I have to keep trying. If things go wrong, I've never asked for any of your help before, and I never will. I'll deal with it myself.

I really want you guys to know, that I do value the advice you guys have given me. But it's really not helping. So for once, I need you guys to just back off. Don't do anything, don't say anything. I've always been there for all of you and I've never asked for anything from any of you. So for once, I'm asking you guys to stop all of this and just believe in me. I know I'm making the right decision.

I'm so sorry to everybody out there who's been there for me. I know I'm better than this, I know that I've always been the guy to never take risk and to always stick with all of my friends even through the toughest times. But for once, I have to put everything aside and just see this through. No matter much my it hurts or how my heart breaks.

I want you guys to know, that yes, you were all right, this is the biggest mistake I've ever made and I did end up all messed up and broken like you guys told me. But I this is one mistake I have to make, I won't give up even if it really ends up killing me.

To all of you guys out there, I'm not discarding everything you guys tell me, but for once, I just have to believe that it'll work because I know it will. Thank you all so much for everything and I'm really sorry for being so stubborn.

Death, Dying, DEAD

(Rant mode on) Here's the deal, that trial excercise thing (which I believe they call NAPFA or some shit) is like here and I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOO not prepared... I mean, I just went for a little run and I was like half dead when I got back. So... you can pretty much guess what's gonna happen to me on the actual day. (Rant mode off)

Well, the holidays are just around the corner, I SOOOOOOO need a break. Man... to think that my time in RP is almost over and NS is like a year away. It feels like yesterday when I was in W15C playing counterstrike after class. HAIZ...

In case you're wondering about the pic, it's just some random screenshot from awhile ago. as usual, I was having one of my interesting chats with Jon

So Here's BoA with まもりたい ～White Wishes～

Back to school~

Alright, so it's like week 5 or something back in school, my body's pretty much reached it's limit with stress just piling up one on top of the other. My gaming is all but dead and my studies could have been better. The UTs are like... a week or 2 away (THAT'S RIGHT I DON'T KNOW AND I DON'T REALLY CARE). I'm actually posting this today because I'm on MC and I don't have anything better to do. That's how much life sucks.

So as most of you nerds gamers out there would have already known, starcraft 2 is officially gonna be released on the 27th of july. Which is like really soon, I'm like getting nerd chills just thinking about it. I've actually tried a little of the beta myself and quite frankly, IT'S FREAKING AWESOME. So go buy it and I'll see you online for some games So as for the videos, there's been like so many starcraft 2 beta commentaries, so if you guys wanna watch some, there's my fav Huskystarcraft and HDstarcraft, go check them out on youtube, they're freaking awesome.

That's all I have to rant about for today, till my next post which will most likely be in a couple of months if I'm lucky, Peace out homies~ Oh and just for kicks here's T-ara with 너 때문에 미쳐

My New Record...

So here's the deal, I went back the Maersk Drilling for 4 days... I spent about 3 nights on the rig, The Reacher. In those 3 nights, I had a whooping 30 mins of sleep, outstanding. Having ranted about that, I have to say, I stuffed my face silly on in those for days, so if you see me, I did not gain weight! You're just imagining things!

Now for some huge gaming news! Command and Conquer 4: Tiberium Twilight and Starcraft 2: Wings Of Liberty have entered the betta stages! So I'll be stopping the Godzillathon in favour for some betta games from Starcraft 2 which will MOST likely be the game of the year (if it ACTUALLY gets released) Videos are from HD Starcraft on youtube, do feel free to take a look, if you're too lazy I'll be showing some games here. The first game I'll be showing is a TvT. So, it should be a really action packed game.

As for the music, I'll be showing a little something for the ladies, this is SS501 with Love Like This.